Between My Mind and Heart

I want to share my experience regarding spiritual awakening and the journey it entails. While many might dismiss it as hallucination or something unreal, for someone like me who has experienced suspended animation and witnessed what I did during that time, I strongly believe in the concept of duality. As we know, there is light and dark, day and night, good and bad, the moon and the sun, and so on.

I also respect others' right to judge me; after all, it's natural for people to form opinions. However, I believe that those who are truly aware will not rush to judge others, regardless of the labels or titles society places upon them.

To everyone reading this, I send my warmest greetings. Keep walking in the Light, full of faith and confidence, because you are never alone.

Love and light,

Selly

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War Between Mind and Heart

By Selly Agtus WP

For most of my life, I’ve carried a war within me—a ceaseless battle between my mind and my heart. Born into the world as a psychic trance medium, I didn’t have the luxury of growing up in ignorance. From the moment I could understand myself, the whispers of the unseen surrounded me. Dreams that felt more real than waking life. Spirits that lingered like shadows in the corners of my vision. Tarot cards that seemed alive, revealing truths I couldn’t ignore.

Yet, the human part of me fought against it. The mind, ever logical, ever questioning, clung to fear. What if it was all in my head? What if I was different in a way that made me broken, unlovable? I wanted to be normal. To live without waking in terror from visions of places my body had never been but my soul had. To go through life without hearing the stories of spirits seeking my voice to tell them.

My heart, though—it knew better. It carried the weight of my truth, even when I couldn’t bear it. It whispered to me that my gifts weren’t a curse, but my path. My ancestors, ever-watchful, called to me in dreams, in flashes of memory that weren’t mine yet felt so familiar. They reminded me of a truth deeper than my fears: I was born for this.

The war between my mind and heart wasn’t just about my abilities. It was about me. The child within me who felt torn between worlds. The woman I had to become to reconcile those worlds. The eternal soul I discovered in my past lives, holding the wisdom of centuries and the scars of battles fought long before this lifetime.

It wasn’t until I truly saw myself—both in this life and in the lives before—that the tide began to turn. Memories of who I had been flooded back to me, showing me the threads of my soul’s journey. I saw the healer, the guide, the keeper of truths. I saw the pain of rejection, the isolation of being misunderstood, but also the strength that had carried me through it all.

I realized then that the war between my mind and heart was never a war at all. It was a test, a breaking down of walls I had built to protect myself. My mind wasn’t my enemy—it was my ally, helping me navigate the complexities of my gift. My heart wasn’t naive—it was my compass, pointing me toward the life I was meant to live.

I stopped fighting. I embraced the dreams that pulled me into sacred realms. I welcomed the spirits who sought my voice to tell their stories. I allowed my intuition, guided by my ancestors and my connection to the divine, to lead me. The tarot cards, no longer just tools, became sacred bridges between worlds.

But the most profound part of my journey wasn’t in embracing the supernatural—it was in embracing myself. I stopped seeing my abilities as something that set me apart and began to see them as a purpose I was born to fulfill. My inner child, the scared little girl who had once begged to be normal, was finally at peace. I told her, “You are enough. You always have been.”

My ancestors stood with me, their presence a constant reminder that I was never alone. They had walked their own paths, fought their own wars, and now stood as pillars of light, guiding me toward my truth.

So here I am, Selly Agtus WP. Psychic trance medium. Healer. Seer of worlds beyond this one. I am not fractured, nor am I cursed. I am whole, carrying within me the wisdom of my past lives and the hope of the life I am living now.

To those of you who feel at war with yourselves, who feel trapped between who you are and who the world expects you to be: let go of the fight. You are not here to wage war within yourself. You are here to find peace in your truth, to embrace the fullness of who you are.

And me? I no longer fear the whispers in the night or the visions in my dreams. I no longer hide from the power within me. I stand with my mind and my heart as one, walking the path I was born to walk.

Love & Light

Selly